Can you believe 2014 is almost complete?
Yeah, I dunno if it is age, or the fact that I have a kid now, er what……but time FLIES. I feel like we just started 2014, and now we are wrapping it up!
I wanted to take a minute and write about the things I’m grateful for this year. And about lessons learned. And about feelings. And, you know….just stuff!
You know what? I started 2014 being a little frustrated about where I was at physically, like strength wise. And then I sort of told myself to STFU (shut the front door, er…I’m going to assume you can just imagine what I’m REALLY saying here). What good did it do to be frustrated? Especially if I couldn’t say to myself, “self, you’ve done the work and you should be farther along than you are now.” I couldn’t say that. And….
……I also don’t feel bad about not being able to say that. I was 9 months post-partum, oh, and like 8 months post birthing a new business. Not that I like to tout the use of excuses, but…..I had a few things on my plate and training MYSELF got pushed back. Whatevs. The world didn’t end, you know?
You know what though? Once I REALIZED that, I made my strength a priority again….when it made sense. Which turned out to be about July. And you know what? I’ve made GAINS since July. Very deliberate gains. I can press my heavy bells again. I have been hitting the deadlifts weekly if not more frequently. I have been healthily and happily building an ass ton of muscle. And, dare I say…..even a little bit of endurance in the kettlebell swing arena. Who am I???? I don’t even know this girl…..who….you know, like, DOES CARDIO sometimes. Willingly.
But, it is time to switch topics, lest you think all I care about is working out.
You know what was REALLY cool about 2014? Ok, for real. REALLY COOL, but we have to talk about feelings?
One of THE COOLEST things about 2014 was watching my husband be a really phenomenal dad. It is ABSOLUTELY true. Having a kid changes things. When you get together as a couple, you are together for a reason(s). When you have kids, shit changes. 2013 was our year of a first child, and you know what? It is cool watching your husband hold his baby girl for the first time, and snuggling after bottles and bedtimes and all that jazz. It really is. But my favorite part has been 2014, when our babes has gotten a little older. My husband is a really great dad. And I love him more and more every day because he is a great dad, even though I loved him a lot at the start of our relationship. Does that even make sense? Ugh, all the feelings, guys…..sorry. Anyway, the babes and I are lucky to have Todd as our provider, dad, husband, and caretaker. Here is the little note he left for Miss Emma a few weeks ago:
And let me be clear – me and Mr. Todd have had our moments this year fighting over petty shit. Every couple does. But in the end, I CHOOSE him. I love him. I love him as my husband, I love him as my bestie, and I love him as my baby daddy.
Alright, new subject, let us move to Miss Emma. Every mom thinks their kid is awesome. I’m no different. My kid is awesome. We are literally lucking out as parents. I am going to knock on wood here, but this kid is raising herself. We are getting awesome at saying words and stringing them together, we are talking about things like poop and knowing when we go and heading towards potty training (TMI, I know, but this stuff is exciting as a new-ish mom), we’ve had the bumps and bruises of falling and getting back up, and we are learning our letters. As parents, we are also probably getting worked over by Emma’s cheesy smile when she did something she knows she isn’t supposed to do, or whatevs. We are fascinated by books and play-doh, and coloring is a big hit. We are learning. The thing I’m most proud of with this kid is the fact that she says “I Love You.” We say “I Love You” til the cows come home. We say it in the morning, at daycare drop-off, at bedtime, in the middle of the afternoon, but we all say it. It is awesome. We also hug (HUG! From the awkward hugger!).
I think the biggest thing about 2014 for me was that my family life got awesome times a thousand. I LOVE that. I really don’t want that to sound like a braggy Christmas letter, because, you know….we go through the same stuff every other family goes through with ups and downs and all of it. But this year was a great family building year for us.
Alright, time to push the feelings to the side, and move on to…….my lovely little gym! 2014 was a great learning and building year in my business! I have learned so many lessons – some good, some not fun….but still good. I have FABULOUS clients. I am excited each week to see them, and to hear more about their lives. I have watched so many amazing things happen this year, it blows my mind. I have been with some of these peeps for a little longer than two years now, and to watch people with two years of growth is absolutely awesome. Expectations change on their part, and mine. It is really fun to see, and more fun to be a part of. Mostly I am just really happy to be a tiny piece of many different lives. And on top of it, I have some fabulous instructors to help as well!
As a way to wind this post down, I think it is time to say a great big “thank you” to the friends in my life. I have some great ones – some that have been around for a bit and some that are brand new. I have learned a lot of lessons this year from my friends. One in particular – the one I think I have chatted with every single day in 2014 so far – you have made such an impact in my life, you don’t even know. To all my friends, THANK YOU!
And finally, there is one MAJOR piece I must address here. This year, I made an extra special focus on choosing to be grateful for things and seeing the good and the glass half full versus the glass half empty. All of these things I’ve talked about above are nothing different from what everyone else goes through. Except, this year, I could SEE it. I don’t know if I would have been able to SEE these things if I hadn’t made the effort to CHOOSE to. You know?
So, if you are EXCITED to head into 2015 like I am…..promise me ONE thing. You will make a conscious effort to CHOOSE gratitude. And to be present in your life versus always looking ahead. Just make an effort at those things, even if they feel awkward to start with. You won’t regret it.
Cheers to 2015! Bring it on, baby!