Ick, the title alone of this blog probably indicates we are going to talk about feelings, right?
If you know me….talking about feelings needs to happen sometimes, actually probably more frequently than sometimes. I joke about them a lot, but bring them out on the rare occasion. Because, you know….talking about feelings can get dicey. Because….. it’s nice to float around in your life where everything is magical unicorns and rainbows, and 28 kilo kettlebells fly up easily in a clean and press, and things like body image demons don’t exist, right? And in that magical unicorn and heavy kettlebell land, feelings are fun and light and free, right?
They are until you feel a few not so fun and light and free feelings.
Like, when you start to doubt yourself sometimes because your jeans feel snug, or you got in a crap fight with your husband about nothing important. Or random other useless stuff to feel bad about, but since we’re piling on….let’s keep this shitstorm going for a week or two, yeah?
I’m writing this one because I answered a really, really, really powerful question yesterday inspired by Jill Coleman. It’s sort of an open ended question, in a series of other questions in her mindset makeover series. I started it a few weeks ago, and it’s a doozy for taking a little looksie into your mindset (and working on changing it a bit if that’s your fancy).
Anyhoo, back to the question.
If I never used negative self-talk again…….
My answer came flying out like ton of bricks.
I would be allowed to feel powerful and always enough.
I write and preach and all that good stuff a lot about loving yourself and who you are. That is true for me much of the time, but going through an icky patch here and there can knock you off your axis (phrase stolen from my amazing friend) in a heartbeat. Then, once you are down, it’s very much easy to get down on EVERYTHING that you declare not awesome or things that have happened in your past and yadda, yadda, yadda – you feel like you are not enough for some reason or another.
You are ALWAYS enough just as you are. I am ALWAYS enough just as I am.
When it’s time to get flowery and show the feelings, you might get a hug from a friend. If you are like me, sometimes….because you don’t show and feel all the dang feelings sometimes, you might practice the “ass out” hug. You know the one – you lean in close and wrap your hands around the person you are hugging, and give them the awkward pat on the back….but your ass sticks out. Because you can’t get THAT CLOSE and REALLY get into the hug. Because it’s just too many feelings. Sometimes, though, you feel the feelings and go all in…..you know, the “ass in” hug. Like, total full embrace, even if your whole body touches.
Here is to ALWAYS being enough. ALWAYS.
Let’s “ass in” hug, shall we?